Wednesday, March 21, 2012

750words - Personal goals - health and weight.

So - as a break from the story (I know - aren't I cruel) I'm doing a bit of an actual update... Separate from the other days.

This one... may be a bit more personal that the others - so if you don't want to read it well... I won't hold it against you.

I appear to have joined a gym. Yes - one of those places with rows of exercise machines and people in shorts that are far too short and t-shirts that are far too tight. But... I've joined one. For those that know me - will know I'm overweight. Have been getting steadily more overweight for years now... (And I hate it. Who is overweight and doesn't hate it just a little bit?) and despite the frequent (and constant) promises to do something about it... I haven't. Not for any real length of time at least.

Until now.

I'm not sure how much I'm going to be able to update this whole thing through the 750 words project but - hell - I'm going to give it a go. It's just whether I can actually extend it to 750 words a day - or whenever I write about it.

So... the actual stuff I don't normally write about...
I'm currently sitting at about 21stone.

That's a phrase that kind of horrifies me just to look at, especially as I promised myself several times I'd never be on that wrong side of 20 stone.

But... here I am. To be happy, I want to drop about six stone. At least. Because being this size isn't comfortable, it's a pain in the arse to get clothes that fit properly, and it's next to impossible to get LARP armour and such to fit as well. The last one is probably the most annoying and the one that bugs but most... (it probably shouldn't be but LARP is a big part of my life and a big part of what drives me, creatively, where I focus my free time and where a lot of my efforts are concentrated.)
I struggle sometimes when I remember how big I am... because quite often I forget it and I expect to be able to do this with a bit more dexterity and agility than I actually have - and that frustrates the hell out of me at times. I'd love to throw myself around easily at LARP, take tumbles and dives...

Bleh. This is becoming a bit of a contrite and rambling post and I didn't want it to become that.

But that's what it should be really - documentation that I want to change - physically at least. I want to be happy with my body, want to be comfortable enough to walk round topless in the summer - I'd never want to be or see myself as some ripped body builder or whatever but toned. Toned is a good state of being I think.

So - the path to that starts here I guess. I've slowly being doing the eating healthier thing - not always very well - but I've been doing it (with a little help from some good friends,) I started the swimming and am now signed up to a gym which I am, I AM, going to go to at least 2 or three times a week. LARP is my other exercise - and trucking around in steel chainmail for even four hours a day is bloody hard work. So... gym Tuesday, swimming Thursday, LARP Saturday and maybe Sunday and then repeat. Any Sunday's I don't LARP, can be gym days... And then as I get more and more used to it - I can go more and more days in the week.

That sounds fair enough, right?

My aim is to drop six stone. Which - I'm not sure whether that is a lot or not, or how fast is healthy to lose that much but... I can do what I normally do and make it up as I go along, right?

But... I need help generally. I have a short attention span like some kind of ADD - and any projects or whatever seem to drop away with some degree of speed. Most of my life is littered with partially complete projects or tasks or.... whatever. Just things I pick up and run with for a short while before it drops off - either because I lose interest or the next shiny thing comes along.

So - where the help comes in - I already have WONDERFUL friend who is encouraging me with this and going to the gym with me - but people questioning me, encouraging me, spurring me on and general positive re-enforcement would be wonderful. It's probably why I've gotten so far with the "Trouble in Middale" story arc I've been doing - because I've had some awesome people (two in particular,) commenting, without fail, every day. Which is what I NEED, which is what helps to push me on and do more of it.

So... any help is appreciated - and - I'll keep you posted on where it leads.


Leah M K said...


I know how hard it is to lose weight and I'm here whenever you wanna chat. But you know that. :) I'm *always* here.

I love you so much, hun. Good luck!


aidasteel said...

*points up*
Me too.

I'm feeling the EXACT same as you. I'm fucking sick of how I look and feel about myself and have resigned to do something about it.

What gym have you joined btw? Because I'm well up for going too! Gym buddies always make it better because frankly I get bored as hell trying to go to the gym on my own.

love youssssssss x

Gary Crutchley said...

Well done, son, well proud of ya. Stick with it, and I know it's not gonna be easy but even if you just keep thinking you'll be able to fit in some decent larp stuff later on in the year, well that's all the motivation you need. Have a quiet word with ya bro and see what he's doing. 2 stone in three months is nothing to be sneezed at. I'll help all I can.
Manley hugs from ya old man.

November Burns said...

It's incredibly hard to lose weight. My best advice is to stick to manageable, achievable, healthy goals. Maybe half a stone in a month.

Healthy weight loss is around 1-2lbs a week. Exercise will definitely help you achieve this, but simple changes make a huge difference too. Drink "diet" drinks rather than regular versions for example if you have to have fizzy pop. Dilute fruit juice with water (e.g. 80/20) to make something tasty but a little healthier.

If you want to, Kizzi, Ruth and I have a spreadsheet where we try and keep track of weight loss goals, I can invite you to use that.

Alex said...

My tips from someone else who can let new things slip is to make one change a week...trying to completely change your life / diet / whatever over night never sticks! So a little and often.

Don't get too hung up on the weight either, especially after the first initial "Whoah! How much have I lost" honeymoon period. You will start to build more muscle which is 3x the density of what it is replacing. Measuring chest / waist/upper arm/theigh can track the changes even when the scales show little change.

The aim of "toned" is a good one....not everyone in the office wants to be a meat-head :)